there are so many so many things happening this few days
all i can say that.
my parents are.
UNPREDICTABLE

they're so dangerous~ ahh!

u smile? they will somehow crush that smile of urs.
u expect something? they'll give u the opposite u want
u say u guaikia(or other thing)? they inteprete as u are paikia(the opposite).
u sometimes want ur parents to say something, speak up for u, encourage u, give u morale support? i dont feel it. i dont see it. i don noe if they will ever know what i want.
they cannot "sense" what i'm feeling at times
= no mo qi.
i think even me and some frens have a better mo qi den them.
hais.
life really gives hell when there's no mo qi. it really does and now i know.


idk.
can imagine? everything u wanna do is wrong
e.g u wanna stop ur chinese tuition cos u feel ur grades aint improving.
my mom say i wannt to "drop" chinese
I'm NOT.
WHY WOULD I WANNA WASTE 2hrs and NOT improvE?

and the way she say is like -
my son hates chinese
he want to drop
he don wan chinese anymore, so be it (hmph) those kind.
sounds so negative

then whenever they ask u do something, obviously as every normal guai child we'll do
and have to keep a smile in our faces.
sometime smiling needs more energy.
after everyday i'm back from my tiring training.
obviously i feel lethargic, weak, want to slp
and probably give a sort of tired look
they say i show them attitude.
which = they don understand me.
this sure get me go =(... "they dont understand me... AGAIN" look.
become mom:"see see~! what look is that. bu shuang again la."


since when did my parents understand me less then my frens. *faints*


chers!
i did what u said, i tried to interact more... tried to do things u all said.
but to no avail, i still failed.

nan ren liu xue bu liu lei.
i still have to keep this in my heart.

but i decided. to put all this negative emotions here and leave it here... =D

well well.
i shall not get myself down at times like this..
there's still school.
life goes on~


OKAYS.

3 more days to go till..!!
4 more days to go!!!
5 more days to go till end of..!!
6 more days to go till...!!

slowly figure what events i have. =D

actually.
looking around today aft my lesson


i still feel sports bag looks not bad after all
especially those in Nike and Adidas.
some look big though... this puny kid like me... i wear i look like a baby child!


then stupid.. ah chai go buy the grey/red nike one..
now i wanna get something not the same and still the latest.. hmph! i'll wait for the next time!?









Yesterday..

Went to some buffet,(to celebrate my bday in advance cos papa fly tmr)[yes i'm gonna miss him]
Spice _____(i don remember)

but the food were quite delicious
i became ice cream maker~
i go help ppl make icecream nicely. XD.
making it nice satisfy me somehow

i also
invented my own mango pudding. =D
used the food all around the buffet to make some new dessert
not bad lo. wan try? =x (at least no diarrhoea)

overall still. nicenicenice. =D









Chinese baozhangbaodao..
still a killer.
i'm gonna do it now.. so.
cya~ bye!