MERRY X'MAS ALL!
THANKS FOR THOSE WHO SMS MI WISHES.
I DO HOPE MY WISHES COME TRUE. =D

Today.. went to great grandma house.
yes she is still living.. pls.

this yr. 2 of my uncle(age 19-23) bring their girlfrens over. LOL.
then 1 look paikiaa... 1 look guaii.

den my mom: waa.. eh nxt time u get gf hors. get THIS uncle de hors. not THAT one. LOL
my ahyi heard keep laughing sia.

i hawen even think THAT far yet lors.. =x

aiyos..

i still get 1 present. =X somehow

den play nitendo wii
okok la
but tagteam with sis uhs..SIAN leis

that wiisports tennis

she no ball sense.. all misscue
sibei sian

win or loose is her problem. ijust nid win my bal
so stress rite? =D

like. she complain: i wan surve the ball. fun leis

so she get to serve.
she MUST lose her service game
den later THEIR service game 80% she miss hers. i 80% hit mine. so if she win her ball at least once hors.. god bless me. it'll be the 3rd set!

3rd set liao. i will win service game =D


okok la overall nt bad =D

I'm stacking all 3. in a rush. i'll definitely post up all e photos when i take from ahyuu blog! =D

and den uhs..

that'll happen nxt week

tis week mom ALWAYS at home. whole day. scarescare.



Sembawang hors! we win!
wth is i NVER play..
gary come back onlii play alr. T_T
unfair uhs. he tall ma!

nvm uhs

later.. YOUTH TEAM HAS ARRIVED.
of course..
consists of
me winston gary marcus jonny caspy ahleong! =D

WIN senior team!
WIN ALUMNI team!

though.. many irritating stuff happen uhs =x





BBQ.

allot of senior dere!
some i dunnno
shocked

heys i got 1 award =D
i get what.. uh
best attitude award? yay!

and the food nice oorhs

Today
THE DAY THE EARTH STOOD STILL with sam
nt bad uhs.. last part was ruined
sian leis

later i going home that time
AHyUUU called mii T_T
asked mii to bowll
okok i went
latee*
AHH YUU MORE LATEE

so its mii arthur juncheng ahhyu
went yishun safra..

EHS I FIRST TIME SCORE TURKEY.
I FIRST TIME BREAK RECORD SCORE 175.
AND... FIRST TIME LEARN THUMBLESS BOWLING FROM ARHHHTHHUURRR HUATT ARHs! =x
SAM BEAT THAT! =D



den reached homee super tired

ahh i nxt time edit=x

Can BLOW THINGS UP.

Ytd. played with 6g frens. plus my frens fren(ah puii) and ah puii fren.
sian eh so lil ppl
all cheating ppl
all cant go.


hais. in e end 2 come sleep at my floor( my house so good arhs...?)
in e end played CHEAT. LOLS.

* For the next part. There will be Explict Content.*
*NC- 16*


later go play with weird strangers soccer agn
saw "interesting ppl"
1 ah pek go join youngsters play.
strong hors. sibeii fit!
vulgarities flying everywhere.. >.< cuz their "plan" fail or what. aniihow kick sometimes.
patern too mch also

AT HOME is the problem
i just talking to mom. i jus "spike" the room
my sis give that fcking "EEEEK" expression to me.
i'm freaking pissed. i was thinking of ramming the washing machine but just soft whack.
WTF.. MY SIS HID BEHIND MOM LIKE I SOME MONSTER. b!tch.
i human rite? den SCARED WHAT SHIET?
MOM scold me like fck what i not matured?
SAY:" she is extrovert. meaning body language can see how she feel. u introvert so more diffiicult ma. and just because her expression is a little extreme. cannot arhs? everyone has expressions. u also have rite? u no choice but to accept rite? u don let her show any expression den what u want her to do. u can hog the com like mad she don DARE to use. she so scared she's avoiding u."

ME says: she could've asked rite?

mom: " yea yea. den u'd throw tantrums den give her. "

*continues for a few minutes till my diarrhoea stoped the conversations..*

fcking hell.
its like what u did to me last time isit not?

U SCOLD ME LIAOS
DEN U ASK ME. WHY U BLACK FACE?
WTF. U SCOLD ME I MUST HAPPY ARH? I MUST BE A LUNATIC THEN.

WANNA PLAY AVOIDIN GAME ARHS CAN!
U HAB MOM ON UR SIDE. DAD TOO. ITS OK! U YOUNG MA. CAN BE MORE CHILDISH MA
OK..

ASSHOLE. LIKE U NVER SEE ME GIVE THE COM NICELY TO U AND PLAY. I GOT LAR!
WTF. EXAGERATE LIKE I SOME DEMON. PLS LA. U CAN EXAGERATE I CANNOT ARHS?

E.g U SEE ME HIT A WALL( NOT FULL STR) U CAN SCARED LIKE U GONNA FAINT. U SURE?

anyone whose reading this. can believe u have this kinda girl? p4 nxt year le? with "weak heart"?
the girl who keep talking bout she wan nehneh called "weak"
the girl who keep hanging out flirting with boys is called "weak, you zhi( pure )"
WTF how to understand?

When i am NOT showing anii feelings.
parents say i black face.
sometimes..
even my frens say.
Eh, EMO ARHS?
FCK LA EMOTIONLESS CANNOT ARHS

momSays: u cannot accept. at least adapt la. we live by adapting.

DEN ADAPT TO MINE. I PLAY COM ALOT? CANT I?
I DONT SHOW MCH OF MY EXPRESSION TO U GuYS. ACCEPT IT.
if u cant. WHY SHOULD I





u want me to go to the"dark side"? fine. WAIT LONG LONG.

this is MY theory of life.

if there is happiness there is always angriiness too
so if u are emotionless, u wont get angry.
RIGHT?

and STILL I GET CALLED EMO OR BLACK FACE. WTF


Wanna play avoiding game? can!
u say U DON DARE ask rite
DON ASK la!
U USE FOR ALL I CARE.

I STUDY ALSO CAN
I GUITAR ALSO CAN.
U WANT ME GETTOUT OF THE HOUSE. ALSO CAN.

U WAN ME FIND GANG ISIT?
SO I NOT ALONE ISIT?

fck u mans i will definitely NOT go.
i still noe whats right and wrong.

i WILL find something to do.
i just need RELIABLE frens. =D

frm now on. HOG THE COM FOR ALL U WANT.
FAIL UR EXAMS FOR ALL I CARE.

SIS, U WANNA CHALLENGE ME. COME ON.
don dare talk? OK! DON TALK TO ME.
wana avoid? AVOID LA. WE WILL NOT BE IN THE SAME ROOM AT ALL NOW

whichever room u pick. i'll pick the other one. EVEN IF IT TAKE TO GO TO THE TOILET STUDY. BATHROOM EAT. WHAT EVER. I WILL DO IT.

aiyarhs. i noe i say alot of times wrongly..
OK?

jurong WEST =D
i always tot its same as mrt jurong east uhs.. =x

got 1 number 7 player name is ZHEN YEE. LOLS

anw.. somehow.. they're playing like sec 1's

though i jiayu said: i don like haolian ppl. prefer humble ppl at the end of e games. i bet he's trying to say me uhs =x

cuz i said: wa sian... they.. nver zhun bei jie qiu(prepare to receive ball aka bend knee prepare)
even if they did. its wrong posture..
den.. receive ball and setting nver bend knee
setter set face the players.
spiker donno how to zhu pao qi tiao.( run, jump, spike)
den showoff use left hand. miss le throw tantrum smack ball so hard. we still playing uhs.
slack untill use 1 hand receive. soo.. slack!

i'm more pissed then u hors *points to that jurong west player*.
cuz my fate still nver change.
most prob coach want junwei and arthur be main spikers alr. i guess is cause of age difference also.
maybe i need 1 more year. but yea i guess it wouldent be fair for me =x
heys trevis! 1 more week till sch reopen! 1 more week to change ur fate! can u do it? try arhsss!!
theoratically speaking. chances are SUPER low untill cannot low that i CAN change fate.

cus that word frm coach keep etching into my heart
"bu shi quan bu de dong xi, ni PING jiu ke yi. you shi hou zhen de yao you 'natural talent' "
english..
"Not everything you no, you PERSERVERE means can. sometimes u also need natural talent."

Well guess what. it still hurts me

A international Star Player. consists of..
Natural Talent + Hardworking.

some star players may be..
SUPER natural talent + quite slack..

but..
WHAT HAPPENS TO THE HARDWORKING ONES?
anw how HARD must a person try to be at his best?
cuz.. even ppl who trained hard died. in newspapers rite..?
i seriously pity em.. REALLY..
how can such ppl with such strong perserverence end like tat huh?

like what samuel says
heaven is seriously playing a trick on US(humans)

me: maybe hell is collaborating with heaven too. LOL


u noe what? if thats the case.
i shall take up the challenge.. WHATEVER problems that come to me. i will clear them and get stronger, taller, higher.

i cant be stuck in the reserve seat. i will feel disgraced. i wanna show ppl how capable i am. =D


p.s Happy Bday Jenny =D

Labels: Volleyball

We will challeng agnst Jurong.. WesT?East? donno uhs =D

but all i noe that they're unseeded schools = not good! =D

means. its either we Thrash em? or play with em. gosh. i rather we bukit panjang lars. at least i wanna have the THRILL of fighting STRONG opponents.. and it will give me the will to fite em! den when we win. WOOOOOOOOOO great sense of achievement. true rite? =D

so i will nid to go sch soon. =D bye

Today me and arthur got opposite problems. hahas. onli arthur noes =D

i kana scolded like woa seh
we zu gong must keep chi da xing( eat big star)
onli vballer noes =D

okiie arhs

we also talked bout it..

Edited ( now or never)

one month.. one month..
ONE MONTH.. that is all we have..
one month.. one month..
ONE MONTH.. Get Ready Train hard!
one month.. one month..
ONE MONTH.. Running outta time!
one month.. one month..
ONE MONTH.. Its on the line!
one month.. one month..
ONE MONTH.. We have to get this done! (Our mistakes/faults)
one month.. one month..
ONE MONTH.. Till we're Number ONE!

one month team. lets make use of this.
one month is all we have
one month for us to be at our best.

lets go team!

*to be continued*

Labels: Volleyball

Today we challenged dunman and yishuntown at nyjc.

got thrashed.don wanna tell u e scores man. i'm too embarassed to say

First is dunman.
tall. strong. zomg.

2nd is Yishun town
weaker den dunman by abit onli. nth to say la.

without gary teehao and junwei so difficult to play mehs?

guys. tell mi? isit so difficult? i tink its ok.

what happen to our first receive?
did we play as a team?

next time we block. the behind will cover. so. the front person don nid worry. k?

soonheng told me how to attk. but the thing is. i dont have the time to see the empty spot when the ball is setted badly. and the cause is all our first receive sucked!jia yu trying his best alr..

i first few game trying to cheer us on. but den...

every attk was blocked blocked blocked. so dropball.
also cannot kill em.
whats wrong mans?
why me and arthurs. loop shot all out? the court got problem?
what happened to my drop? gone? so high! if not can kill le lor!

so since we all front court kana block. my subset attking spot kana blcok.
my mood was totally dampened...
i lost it.

i told jiayu i back court whack la.
so.. whack whack still can GO over and kanna blcoked!!! so cant kill
last ball.. LAST ball! i backcourt whack liao! still... blocked..

i like mental breakdown le after i lost to dunman
so.. if i got u guys unhappy i'm sorry.
cuz.. i have no idea what to do..
u guys keep saying. think of what to do.
but the thing is.. with my lousy standards now. i am unable to attack. i cant defend spots too far out with them hitting thru our weak blocks( holes)
i cant use my left hand today. no mre strngth.
i cant drop!
i cant do a proper thing.


with all the past events tat i cannot let go up till now.. my heart hurts alot
now. my heart feels totally crushed. pulverised alr

do i still have the fighting spirit to go on?! i don have the height to challenge this defence. i nid to go OVER it.. cause.. ITS a hard brick wall! its super difficult to break thru it!

soon heng. ur tactics are.. i noe alr. I noe what u trying to say. but that needs luck!
u cant expect to hit their fingers all e time ya noe..











i have no choice
god. i plead to u

can someone spot me for the youth olympics?
can someone invite me to a good combine sch?
can someone get me into the national squad?

i really want it bad..
i don wan to make a wrong choice in my life..
cause this is what i chosed.

so please.. help mi..

Labels: My Impt Lessons Of My Life

I changed my skin luhs. OBVIOUS BA. Blue To Orange!? LOL!

okok.. wondering why i nver post rite?

i tell u

i'm SICK LA.

Drowsiness untill like..
yawn till tears comeout

Runny Nose untill like..
Nose ran away. pain untill like..
CAnnot breathe?!

with this 2 i die alr

but it came with..
THIS COLD Weather this few days.
Cold like aircon. untill i need a heater instead.
brr the wind is BLOW in de luhs. T_T

my carpet become flying carpet. float de. =D i got video to proof! but lazii post =x

o well. tmr temasek jc. wish me luck XD

Well.. went sch at 11.45. .. sec1's are DJ MAX FREAKS. i am nth special ok. i not god. ask looneh come i think he can win me alr. =D

shuqun.. outta 5sets won 1.
played like 1 and 1/2 sets since junwei off form.
den its like onli 1 backcourt spike
and 1 LEFT HAND SOFT SPIKE DOWN TO 3m MANS WOOT.

ok la. overall injured my hips while trying hard to save thomas once in a bluemoon misscue ball
went to dive that much when i heard last trng. coach: u 3 all got ping. all ping(perservere of something) alot. so i was like. OK LA PING MORE ARH! den piack injured.

tmr vs hwachong! can see tat coachiie! talk to him arhs! =DD

was telling arthur. ARH today u play all ehs. i play abit onli
arthur:" nvm. saturday vs hwachong u can play all u want. " =D NOT exactly happy though
sounds as though my chances of being the 3rdchoice spiker is highhhhhhhh
cuz i sec2 ehs. NO FAIR UHS.

i analyse our Main team alr.. =D i donno correct but i'll name em

JiaYu(Setter)
Fast
Jumper

Jeremy ( Setter)
Active
Good in Diving for the ball ( rolling like a ball XD)

Thomas(Pro Setter and Potential Subsetter)
Alr in National Squad
Silent Setting
Tall build
Left Hander is a rarity

Derrick( Subset )
Fast
Active
Left Hander is a rarity

Casper ( SubSet)
Jumper
Quite Tall

Tee Hao( Center)
Strong Muscle Man
Good Jumper
Strong Spiking

ChiaMeng ( Center )
Fast spiking
Tallness

ChinLeong ( Center )
Tallness
Good blocker

Gary (Center)
Tallness
Jumper
Good spiker

Keith ( Libero )
Good in Critical saves.
Quick Thinker


HERE COMES THE PROBLEM....

Arthur ( Spiker)
The "A" Ball pro among spikers
Very Consistent

Junwei ( Spiker)
Best in receiving receiving among spikers
Good in critical saves

Me (Spiker)
Able to use both hands well among the spikers
Good in critical saves

Which of us will be put as the reserve? ZOMG.
most probably will be me uhs.
How to surpass my 2 senior within.. 1 month?

coach:" UP TILL NOW.. still cannot decide who to put uhs. u see GARY still overseas.. den.. he come back must see his performance again"

Causing no ones centere position to be secure


coach:"Then setter ehs? must see jiayu alr. i soooooo HOPE JIAYU can perform. so i got my IDEAL subset. He blur uhs. must be thomas set alr. den derrick subset. but.. liddat uhs. i don have my ideal subset"

Causing no ones setter and subset position secure

Coach:" aiyarhs. u 3 spikers hors. Height? samesame uhs. TanTiao( Jumping ability) samesame also. so.. well. there's nothing that make anii of u guys outstanding."

Causing no ones spiker position secure

Jialet arhs! HOW?
he say liddat like comforting me sia
i youngest among them.
so considered to have less experience.
EH COACH I PRI SCH PLAY COUNTED ANOT?
6-7 Years Experience EH!?

i really must train much harder den before..
1 month is all i have. 1 month..

thats all for vball

My life!? nth special. WHO WANTS TO GO BOWLIN~~~~~?
or SWIMMING~~~~?
or MOVIEEEEEEEE~~~~?

kana ignored by someone uhs. AGAIN AND AGAIN.

anw. i xiang kai le!
while some ppl overseas.
i thought it thru of what i want now.

cause so stressed
Music?
Vball?
Studies?
Frenships and more?

Well.. which one will be my priorities?

I'm not a showoff. like WOA. I MAKE ALL MY PRIORITIES LA
I CAN TAHAN DE

kapui! NO. cause i saw a show.
u have lotsa path to choose. but u cannot reach the standard of any of them yet.
sooner or later u have to decide.
which one will be the path u will decide.

So...

i've decided alr.
I'm gonna take a gamble
Whichever choice i take is also a gamble.
so.. this is what i choose.

sam. thats what i meant. i decided something between somethings. u'll guess which one is it.

Labels: My Impt Lessons Of My Life