Test are ending.
Horror is coming.
Everyday is Killing me
Who will come and Save me?

I know i'm not smart like other geekos. who take 1 day or even 1 second before test and are able to memorise all e details perfectly.
I CANT. so i need more time to study. just to catch up to my classmates. but does hard work EVER EVER pay off? i keep asking that to myself day by day

my answer will always be: as long i did my best. thats enough.

But now i have other ideas. O.o Why others try their best. and they are noticed by the Crowds?
They are all nominated for the Olympics or Youth Olympics. The others are just left beside to be EXTRAS. even though they try very hard too.

today
lit- 4/15 for test. see. first step to failure.
hist- aint a fun lesson u noe. but still perservering
maths - cannot tahan. maths still ok. i'm preparing for tomoro's test
chinese- hard work collapsed. i fell asleep alr. 5min i think or 15. nt sure. but juz slept
eng - nair was scolding again. barely did anything. i can rest.. whew.
sci - mrs chan wan us do worksheet. we all got new seating place o.O good eh. got fan smore.

guess thats all. interhouse bball. lost. haiz. thats WHAT I WANTED TO TALK ABOUT
how do I, a person who dont like bball and roughness, win agaisnt others, who loveee bball and stays back to play? and even when we lost. people clapped to show i've done well. i noe ppl is trying to comfort us. but. it makes me feel worse somehow.

today. mr ong gave me something to do.
he gimme go for a YOG leadership talk.
reason : gary was supposed to go. as he is capt. and he did not wanna go.
WHY. A person who has more potential den me did not wanna go.
i was elected to go. why? i'm SECOND BEST. and u noe. 2nd is nver reconised. 1st is e most famous. thats the BIGGEST DIFFERENCE.

so those who were going.
Trev(vice capt vball THE ONLY VICE CAPT / Appeal in with No Height & Skills [so vice capt lors])
Crs ( Capt of Netball)
Qihuan ( Capt of Running / Appeal in with Skills)
LoonShin ( Capt of Table Tennis / Appeal in with Skills)
others don kare.

we 2/2 most capt! yet. in interhouse we cant win. diu lian ehs.

i really don't know what i can do to improve myself.
really in a dilema.
Studies - can i catch up?
Sports - can i continue to improve and be the top?

WHAT SHOULD I CHOSE

Labels: My Impt Lessons Of My Life