Today we challenged dunman and yishuntown at nyjc.

got thrashed.don wanna tell u e scores man. i'm too embarassed to say

First is dunman.
tall. strong. zomg.

2nd is Yishun town
weaker den dunman by abit onli. nth to say la.

without gary teehao and junwei so difficult to play mehs?

guys. tell mi? isit so difficult? i tink its ok.

what happen to our first receive?
did we play as a team?

next time we block. the behind will cover. so. the front person don nid worry. k?

soonheng told me how to attk. but the thing is. i dont have the time to see the empty spot when the ball is setted badly. and the cause is all our first receive sucked!jia yu trying his best alr..

i first few game trying to cheer us on. but den...

every attk was blocked blocked blocked. so dropball.
also cannot kill em.
whats wrong mans?
why me and arthurs. loop shot all out? the court got problem?
what happened to my drop? gone? so high! if not can kill le lor!

so since we all front court kana block. my subset attking spot kana blcok.
my mood was totally dampened...
i lost it.

i told jiayu i back court whack la.
so.. whack whack still can GO over and kanna blcoked!!! so cant kill
last ball.. LAST ball! i backcourt whack liao! still... blocked..

i like mental breakdown le after i lost to dunman
so.. if i got u guys unhappy i'm sorry.
cuz.. i have no idea what to do..
u guys keep saying. think of what to do.
but the thing is.. with my lousy standards now. i am unable to attack. i cant defend spots too far out with them hitting thru our weak blocks( holes)
i cant use my left hand today. no mre strngth.
i cant drop!
i cant do a proper thing.


with all the past events tat i cannot let go up till now.. my heart hurts alot
now. my heart feels totally crushed. pulverised alr

do i still have the fighting spirit to go on?! i don have the height to challenge this defence. i nid to go OVER it.. cause.. ITS a hard brick wall! its super difficult to break thru it!

soon heng. ur tactics are.. i noe alr. I noe what u trying to say. but that needs luck!
u cant expect to hit their fingers all e time ya noe..











i have no choice
god. i plead to u

can someone spot me for the youth olympics?
can someone invite me to a good combine sch?
can someone get me into the national squad?

i really want it bad..
i don wan to make a wrong choice in my life..
cause this is what i chosed.

so please.. help mi..

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